Holistic Centre for Body, Mind & Spirit

February 2012

Case study – Samantha

All of the case studies you will read here are the experiences of real Anam Cara clients. They have asked for their real names not to be used to protect their privacy but all of them wanted others to know that problems can be overcome, whatever they are.


I was diagnosed with ME six years ago and my condition had gradually worsened. I tried to ignore this deterioration, hoping that it would just sort itself out. I had been convincing myself that I’d just been run down, had a virus and so on – and then I read an article in the Journal written by Sonia, which told of her own very similar experience which really rang true with me. I realised I had to try and deal with the ME and stop pretending it wasn’t a problem.

When I first started seeing Sonia, I started to feel really unwell during the sessions, which was very interesting – as if my body was reacting against being there. It wasn’t long before I started to feel stronger after each session instead. It wasn’t unusual for me to come in all hunched over, pale and quiet but leave walking taller and with colour in my cheeks – it was almost like coming back to life.

During the first few sessions with Sonia, I learned a lot about the impact that childhood traumas had made on me, as well as subsequent personal, work and family traumas later on. I think it was only because I was in such a terrible state by the time I went to see Sonia that I felt ready to look at what had happened in my childhood and come to terms with it. Maybe I needed those six years of inaction before I was ready to take that first step.

Deep Memory Process

Sonia had mentioned Deep Memory Process (DMP) to me during our sessions and it became clear that it could play an integral role in overcoming the abuse I suffered in childhood. When I felt ready, I booked a session with Anam Cara’s DMP practitioner, followed by a session with Sonia.

At the start of the session, the DMP practitioner put me into a deeply relaxed state. It’s actually a lovely sensation, especially when you’re in pain as I was, because everything just melts away. In this state, my unconscious spoke while my conscious mind just observed. It’s a strange sensation to try and describe.

Throughout the session, the practitioner gave constant reassurance and I felt completely safe. She always stresses how everything that you experience during the session is simply memory, that it is not happening to you now and can not hurt you again. By the time I left the session, I was calm and relaxed and was never troubled by the memory afterwards.

Being in this deeply relaxed state allowed me to see and deal with these memories as part of my healing.

Continuing to heal

I had a few DMP sessions, which were enough to do what we hoped they would do. Now I still see Sonia and our sessions deal with both my past traumas and my current illness. The two are linked of course, and Sonia has helped me understand that the symptoms were a sign that my subconscious mind was using my body as a call for help.

The good thing about sessions with Sonia is that there is never any pressure and never any judgement. Sonia is so open it doesn’t matter what you want to say, in fact she believes that things come into your mind for a reason and you should recognise that. She’s friendly and supportive, as is everyone at Anam Cara.

Despite this, strangely I still get nervous before each session but I know that I will always come out feeling better than when I went in. I feel changes in my body after each session and I know I’ve been improving because I’ve been recording my symptoms for a while now and the change is clear. This has proved useful because even on the days I’m feeling drained, I can see how much progress I’ve made.

Recently things have really levelled out with fewer peaks and troughs. I can now move around the house, do some housework, go out in the car and so on, whereas before it was all I could do to get from my bed, down the stairs and to the settee for the day. I still take medicine but pain relief used to be ever-present all day, every day but right now I’ve been ten days without any. People comment that I’m much more like myself and I feel like I’m rediscovering me. My family and my husband can’t believe the transformation.

Before I started seeing Sonia, I had just been accepting that life was for getting through. That had become the norm. Now, I’m about to decide what I should do next to continue my recovery. The goal is to go back to work when the time is right.